its a strange story to be honest. but to put it simply - im hurting everyone around me when i self harm, and ive never actually realised that before. seeing both my dad and sister cry cos they’ve realised everything ive done over these past few years… well it hurt me like hell.
i listened to what the police told me yesterday -“stop thinking of all the negatives. think about all the positives in your life.” i have a lovely family, a gorgeous perfect boyfriend, supportive friends, a lovely home. what else could i possibly want?
so. im letting it out there. from this day on, im never ever going to try kill myself or self harm again. i will get out of the habit of not wanting to eat because i feel fat, and i’ll be the girl i once was.
if i can do this, anyone can. just believe in yourself. i know it may be hard, but you’ll know when they day comes when you know that everything will soon get better.
im going to delete this blog in one week. so if anyone wants to ask me anything for advice or simply want to talk to me - anon or not - youre more than welcome to send me a message :}